Im feeling a lil sick, wasted and i feel that i make no significance in this world. Ive been having alot of funny feelings. Like the end of the world, family issues, friend issues but mostly my future. yes, im still thinking about np or staying in ite. Im very fickle minded, its just that i dont know.. Im just gonna keep this thoughts to myself.
Hehh, this is what i aim for my jewelry. I wanna own one of those fancy black mirrors with glitter, sequinz and lights on them. And hang all my necklaces, rings and shades! Mostly rings tho. Haha, btw im now totally gaga on nautical necklaces such as anchors, sailboats, the circle floating thing they use when people drowning. Im sorry the name escapes me.
Im seriously in a major shopping mood right now but money is so tight. Ive barely have enough money to indulge myself on delicious food. ): Ugh, im feeling so suckish and besides that im starting to feel my fattiness dominating my life. Yes my period is coming soon, thats why my insecurities are acting up again. Beside my issues on my fatty thighs and toes, my next thing in my mind is im trying to work on lookin' more girly. ):
Hate the factttttt i love jeans and plaid shirts. They're the most comfortable outfits out there and it covers most of my fattness. They're good for lazy days and im lazy everyday! Anyway ive always wondered how fat seriously im talking faaaaaaaaaaat big sized humongo girls are so confident wearing hot pants/shorts wthhhhhhh idk. Or wearing skimpy tanktops/tubes/leggings/braless shirt(ok im exaggerating) and leggings.
Even i dont wear leggings. I wont deny, i do make fun of them. Saying they should dress up properly, i mean who wants to see the jiggling? But i also wont deny that they have all the confidence in the world to wear something like that.
Unlike me, super low esteem. I'll forever be the girl in jeans and plaid.
FYI: Ive no issues on big sized girls. <3 them.
Something tells me i have to wait.
Dont be impatient or do anything stupid.
Time will tell.
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